Possibly because I slept through as much of it as possible. I managed to be only 15 minutes late to work today - then ended up taking a nearly two hour lunch with Ann and Shane. Thinking back, that's how lunch time used to go - we'd have a great big bull session with people from the other offices upstairs and chat and gossip for a long time.
It's no wonder I've been so miserable this year. Everybody's LEFT! I eat lunch at my desk in less than 10 minutes and can go through an entire day without speaking to anyone. Some days without seeing anyone. The numbness seemed to kick in this month and I seem to be able to function again, so long as no one disturbs my blissful, ignorant bubble. I just look for lots of distractions. It's hard to do. I try to help out wherever I can but I just don't seem to be useful to very many people. So I throw myself into books or films or hobbies, and then get comments about how nice it is to have such free time. Nice? NICE??? It isn't nice. I hate it. I WANT to be busy and useful to people.
About all I seem to be useful for is keeping western theater on the air.
Oops. I ranted. My point was that September was blissfully numb. Can I have something better for October? Is it too much to ask?